Thursday, November 20, 2008

OK peeps! Whoever is reading u must be thinking WTF? is this a gal's blog? Well the ans is No. Sorry to dissapoint lol! Nawh.

Ok so just changed the blog skin. JUST. so this is the first post which compliments it. And yea, i feel it's a litle feminine.. well.. kinda like the Masquerade Getup theme. So here it is. Uh.. Seeing that it's late now and it's practically 3 am in the morning, and in about say ugh.. in 10 hrs time or so i'm going for 3 straight FTT E-trial Tests before going for the real one after them. Phew~! sounds tiring just talking and thinking about it.

I'm just gonna make this a short one. =)

These few days have been considered quite gd to me. Feeling a little better and at least i'm a little cheerful at times. Haha guess i have to thank SM Moar Xiang Jiang Bai de Moar Jintia aka. Yu xiang and the group. haha. They really make my day at school. Everyday in sch is just like me going to rehab and having a ball of a time! The classroom is filled with laughter and loud conversations here and there. And well, the laughter is mostly Yu xiang's! then it spreads on to the rest of us. haha. Guess i can truly laugh when i'm with them. Dont really need to pretend or force myself to. haha. Thx ar! you all are Tua AH BAIS!!! Jian Qiang ah!

Now even if i'm alone, atleast i have something to think of to cheer me up. Atleast i'm not emo-ing 24/7 like i used to. Guess it's a start.

But even so, i dont think i can put the past behind me within such a short time. After all, alot has happened. Financially, emotionally and physically. After feeling lost for so long, i'm just getting my bearings right again.

Guess Nurul was right, i have to change my thinking. Instead of hoping for a fairy tail ending with someone i like and thinking of ways to spoil her silly and treat her right, i should just focus on the important matters at hand.. like say.. Financially and physically. =/

Day dreaming about being romanticly invovled wont get me anywhere.. after all this is the real world and not like what you hear in stories or see on Tv.

Hmm.. are there fairy tail endings in this world? Guess not.. haha.

ok i'm gonna go off now. Havent studied for my FTT yet! DIE! was so caught up in the FYP! nOOOOOOOOOOOO!

And just to clear up something..

I may seem really childish at times, probably because i didn't have much of a childhood due to something that happened.. but just you knw, it's childish but not unreasonable.. =) there's always room for understanding. If you just take the time to.

ok so off to quickly pick a random skin for frenster and flip through the book then i'm off to bed.

if there was a soulmate for me, where is she? i would spoil her silly and listen to her.. well.. i guess i should stop..

Gd nites World! :)