Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Just thought of a topic today. Maturity. Being Matured.


What's the true meaning of being matured?

To Me, I believe a matured person isn't one who always claims that their matured and acting all "i'm older than you" and acting all cool and boring.

Being mature ta me means, Being able to handle situations or whatever comes your way smoothly. Come what may.

A Matured person is :

Decisive. - Able to make sensible Decisions no matter what the situation.

Understanding. - Able to Put themselves in other peoples shoes and have an understanding of where those people are coming from.

Not Judgemental. - Able to be unbiased and gather all the information before finally coming to a conclusion.

Humble. - Able to be content just by knowing their good points and not Boast about it to people.

Appreciative. - Able to appreciate life, People & whatever it throws at them.



So far that's all i can think of. I'm not pointing fingers at anyone. Just Stating a fact and what i feel.


Ta' me. It ain't important if ppl find me mature or immature. To me, i just want to live life the way i should and the way i want to. Things like this aren't so impt, no matter hw mature u wanna be or act, there'll always be a fun side of you. Which most ppl would put u down by saying ur childish. But who isn't childish every now and then? =)

It's time to face facts. Piece by Piece. Word for word.

Whatever it is, life just gt shorter. Day by day. Learn to enjoy life before you lose the chance to ever do so.


- That's all folks. "Within the 4 corners, Behind closed doors. These are the only things in this place which is my safe heaven. Safe from all the hurtful things that are being said. The pointless bickerings. The emotional Blackmail. The Undeniable truth. The unhappiness.

Just like hw my body lies in waste, so does my heart. Locked away from the rest of the world. As i searched for the key to my lock. I lost sight of it once again. Till the day it is found again, who ever holds the key to it, please take it away. I do not want my heart to belong to me any longer. Take it and it shall be yours forever.

Once again broken into pieces. Mr. Despair came knock knock Knocking on my door. i'm sorry i broke again. would you fix me Mr. Creator?" - author : Mr . J . R . H

i just sold a part of me for a quater of a million. Nice eh.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

i messed up big time. I thought i could completely get over the whole loving someone secretly part. It really isnt easy isnt it? =( seeing ur msn nick today made me feel really down. but it's all my fault because my feelings made me put myself in this position. My feelings for u are making it so hard for me to talk to u. it makes my mind blank and makes me go all shy and clumsy around you. i guess all i can ever do is stand at a distance and see you being happy with the ppl around you. The countless times i had the urge to call you and wanting to tell you hw much i like you are just too many. during those times, my heart would beat really fast and after keying in your number, i'd just give up cause i felt i just couldn't do it but when i finally did call u aft the last day of the it show at nite, u didnt pick up.. guess i always have a bad timing whenever it comes to contacting u.

Yea, Beauty really is in the eye of the beholder. Since i first saw you, u made my heart beat really fast, in a way i nvr thought would ever happen in my life. So much that it always make me sweat alot everytime i see you and it would make me seem like i just finished running a marathon. Everything you say or do seems perfect to me. I like you for the way you are & not just because of your looks. The times i spend with you are priceless and it's always feels like the happiest time of my life so much that it keeps me wanting to meet up with you even more often.

The way you play with your hair, giggle, laugh, get excited and when you're shy makes me feel like you're the cutest person in the world. But due to various reasons i didn't till a few wks before valentines day when i finally plucked up the courage to ask you, but it didnt happen in the end. I guess i should have told you at the start so i'd know where i stand.. I really felt like telling you hw i feel just nw, but seeing that you already have someone in your heart, it made me stop & i didnt. I just don't know what to do now. I'm really stumped this time round. It's really hard to be just a fren to you when all i can think of is doing romantic things for you, sharing the rest of my life with you & treating you right just like a princess. I'm sorry to tell you this gal, but i think i've really fallen in love with you. I'm sorry that i can't tell you straight the face because of my shy nature. If you're reading this & you feel the same way.. pls give me a call or a sign..

But if you don't, just remember.. whenever you feel like no one loves you, standing beside your family & your closest frens, there was a guy named Ren He who fell in love with you, still feels the same way now & probably will always do. Whether things work out or doesn't i will always be there for you if you need me.

They say if you really love someone, you'd love them for who they are, who they've become and who they're gonna be. simply love them for the way they are. I feel that way.

i can't say much abt myself as a bf. but 1 thing i do knw is that i'm the guy that would tuck you in at nite, send you sweet gd nite msgs, listen to your problems and try to solve them, make a fool of myself just to cheer you up whenever you're sad, lend you my shoulder to cry on if needed, always look out for your best interests, accompany you to the doctors if you feel unwell, reminds you to take ur medicine and tries nt to sound naggy, hug you and remind you hw much i care for u if u feel unloved, share new a different experiences with you, try to suprise you with something special on every important day, nvr cheat on you, treat you right & accept you for the way you are, listen to you talk abt jay chou & chris brown and try nt to feel jealous & so much more.. gal, would you make me the happiest man in the world by going out with me?

Friday, March 14, 2008

That was THEN. This is NOW. just felt like saying that! haha. I fell one too many times and when i thought it was gone, i fell agn for that same person. But rite nw i feel things are so different.

I guess what i wanna do nw is find something i can make my own. music? always wanted to learn the guitar. Well you can say maybe it's because a certain someone had left a really great impression on me. Perhaps while playing the guitar, it's make me feel closer to you. Though you aren't here in this world anymore, you'll always be here in my memories. =)

and one day when i grow old, i hope to travel around the world with just me, my guitar and my love. =)

I'll be moving ahead first. Catch me if you can. =)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Woke up from an hr's slp today and left the house at 7.30am today. reached sch around 8am. today's exam was quite simple just that i had to go and forget all abt some questions. i think i threw away 30 marks atleast. sheesh. well wat's done is done. i'm nt gonna dwell in it anymore. Hope the next semester will be better.

Was supposed to meet Elson early today but he was a little late so went into the exam hall first. after the exam, went to Noods to eat western food. Yea another normal day in sch today agn. Sadly there isn't much things in sch to spark up my life. Another yr more in this godforsaken sch before i can finally graduate. Cheers to that peeps.

Rite nw i'm just gonna work and study for my BTT. These are the things that keep me busy and it feels so much better being busy than emo-ing in a corner at home. No matter hw i keep trying to change, i cant help but still think of what will i do if i had a beautiful gal as my little miss everything to me. Guess it's still the same as it has always have been. To put her first in anything i do or think of, To make everyday with her special & to spoil her silly. And if she's sad, cheer her up wif lame actions or jokes. If she's bored or lonely, chat with her. If she's tired or if she wants to cry badly, lend her my shoulders. If she doesn't feel love, give her a warm hug and a kiss on the forehead to assure her everything's alrite and that she is loved.

You probably think this is all talk. But it's just naming only a few things i really want to do for that special gal. If you really knw me, you'd knw i'd give 300% the effort when i really mean to do something.

But lets leave it as this here. The hopeless romantic side of me is flowing out.

rite nw i dun knw where we stand. Are we frens? or are we just aquaintances? or are we nothing to each other at all and i just imagined things rite from the start? it seems like i'm talking to the wall most of the time and because u dun reply.. it makes me come down to the decision of giving up because u probably might think i'm becoming a nuisance just like Ray. i really do miss the times when i messaged u and u would reply instantly. I really don't know what happened and the way things are now. I'd give as many yrs of my lifespan as possible just to know what's on ur mind. This will probably be the last time i mention you in my blog. I'm going to walk away from all these problems. Amnesia would seem very attractive rite nw. it'll be just like giving a billion dollars to a beggar on the street.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Thinking of watching "step up 2 : the streets" in cinemas. dying to see it on the big screens! thinking of asking some peeps to go. but haven't really thought of anyone who hasn't seen it yet. most of the ppl i knw have already watched it online or on pirated dvds/vcds. haha. this show is a must watch on the big screen! >.< dammit!!

Looks like the result of hollywood scriptwriters being under-paid is really showing. We have movies like SHUTTER, The EYE, The Ring & The Grudge ( ju - on) being remade into hollywood movies. Wonder if it'll get even worse. Hope not! haha.

Suddenly rmb abt some scenes in "Meet the spartans".

- the father wrestling with the son and ending it with a piledriver which the mother shouted for!

- The Pit of Death getting filled with alot of famous and infamous celebs. The Paula Abdul part was really alike! can say it was atleast 99% alike.

- "Happy Feet" aka Angry feet eat my dropkick penguin!

- The Greetings in "Sparta". Hi-5s! for the women & Tongue in mouth Kisses for Men!

- The "sex scene" when actually he was just using her as a bench press weight.

- The part aft the "sex scene" where he lovingly carressed his wife's body only to find out she has been laid by alot of guys. with them signing on her body.

- The "stomp the yard" scene where he did the finishing move and broke his neck and still managed to stand up and put it back tgt.

- The naked scene of his private part looking exactly like a Ken doll from BARBIE.

- the part where he said his "last words of a father to son" to a midget.

- the ugly betty as the oracle part & the leeper licking her on her face and in her nose using his tongue. UGH!!! XD

- The way they "marched" to battle / hopping. haha.

- The "god king" pulling out his nipple and then stapling it back again. yuck!

- The part where he said " Today is the we die!! er wait tt's wrong. i mean today is the day they die, they die!" with that face haha.

- "This is Sparta!" -saliva splats on the messengers face-

- The Rocky balboa part where he punches off Leonides's head in one punch & his father takes revenge for him earning him a Heavy weight title and dying from a "God king's spear" through a cheapshot through the back.

- The ending credits part.

And the JOKE of the whole SHow. most ppl might nt get it but, hw the hell does he have a son when he doesnt even have a Penis? it was bitten off by some animal when they tortured him in the first part of the movie. hahaha! must belong to either the gardner guy or one of those men that laid his wife. nowonder his son doesnt seem like him. XD

Saturday, March 08, 2008

today i almost fainted in work today. on the way to work had bad gastric and kept going toilet during the show.. swear it's getting worser and worser each time i kana. puked in the toilet before the crowd came in. 2 days in a row. hope it doesnt happen agn tml.

today a few things happened in work. accidents and misunderstandings. but let's just cut it short. my batt's running low.

Kz! so aft this work ends tml! back to studies! gt my emaths exam and BTT coming. Today thought i saw wqq at the it fair but i didnt. lucky didnt call out her name if nt sure ps. she told me she didnt go there. just wanna thx her for the sweet msgs and wishes. i have to do well! haha.

Friday, March 07, 2008

shit! WARREN LIM! XD messaged me on my way home just nw. " You have FAILED for ur mock exam! Pls come to sch on wed #05-11 to have revision if nt ur exam sure fail!" FUCK! XD

ok so work hasn't been too bad. haven't been emo for awhile nw. tt's gd. anyways i jsut want to apologize to the ppl involved in some of my previous posts. i'm sry i said things which i shouldnt have said and i'm really sry.

today was the day i did that "deh mumbai dah~ india!!!" m1 ad rip off agn! haha. damn funny lah. hai i type more abt it tml. really tired.. gonan slp nw.

nites world. =)