Sunday, March 23, 2008
i messed up big time. I thought i could completely get over the whole loving someone secretly part. It really isnt easy isnt it? =( seeing ur msn nick today made me feel really down. but it's all my fault because my feelings made me put myself in this position. My feelings for u are making it so hard for me to talk to u. it makes my mind blank and makes me go all shy and clumsy around you. i guess all i can ever do is stand at a distance and see you being happy with the ppl around you. The countless times i had the urge to call you and wanting to tell you hw much i like you are just too many. during those times, my heart would beat really fast and after keying in your number, i'd just give up cause i felt i just couldn't do it but when i finally did call u aft the last day of the it show at nite, u didnt pick up.. guess i always have a bad timing whenever it comes to contacting u.Yea, Beauty really is in the eye of the beholder. Since i first saw you, u made my heart beat really fast, in a way i nvr thought would ever happen in my life. So much that it always make me sweat alot everytime i see you and it would make me seem like i just finished running a marathon. Everything you say or do seems perfect to me. I like you for the way you are & not just because of your looks. The times i spend with you are priceless and it's always feels like the happiest time of my life so much that it keeps me wanting to meet up with you even more often.
The way you play with your hair, giggle, laugh, get excited and when you're shy makes me feel like you're the cutest person in the world. But due to various reasons i didn't till a few wks before valentines day when i finally plucked up the courage to ask you, but it didnt happen in the end. I guess i should have told you at the start so i'd know where i stand.. I really felt like telling you hw i feel just nw, but seeing that you already have someone in your heart, it made me stop & i didnt. I just don't know what to do now. I'm really stumped this time round. It's really hard to be just a fren to you when all i can think of is doing romantic things for you, sharing the rest of my life with you & treating you right just like a princess. I'm sorry to tell you this gal, but i think i've really fallen in love with you. I'm sorry that i can't tell you straight the face because of my shy nature. If you're reading this & you feel the same way.. pls give me a call or a sign..
But if you don't, just remember.. whenever you feel like no one loves you, standing beside your family & your closest frens, there was a guy named Ren He who fell in love with you, still feels the same way now & probably will always do. Whether things work out or doesn't i will always be there for you if you need me.
They say if you really love someone, you'd love them for who they are, who they've become and who they're gonna be. simply love them for the way they are. I feel that way.
i can't say much abt myself as a bf. but 1 thing i do knw is that i'm the guy that would tuck you in at nite, send you sweet gd nite msgs, listen to your problems and try to solve them, make a fool of myself just to cheer you up whenever you're sad, lend you my shoulder to cry on if needed, always look out for your best interests, accompany you to the doctors if you feel unwell, reminds you to take ur medicine and tries nt to sound naggy, hug you and remind you hw much i care for u if u feel unloved, share new a different experiences with you, try to suprise you with something special on every important day, nvr cheat on you, treat you right & accept you for the way you are, listen to you talk abt jay chou & chris brown and try nt to feel jealous & so much more.. gal, would you make me the happiest man in the world by going out with me?